I will run the way of thy commandments, when thou shalt enlarge my heart. - Ps 119: 32
One thing I always wondered about, before I had kids, was how you could love them all. People said snide things like that to my mom all the time. I knew that she loved us all equally, but I wondered if I'd ever be able to do it.
So I was nursing the baby and thinking about this. And really, I think each new baby makes you love the rest of them that much more. It's like God 'enlarges my heart' with each new child so I'm capable of loving them even better.
It's a strange process, where the more you die to yourself, the happier you are. Seems so alien to the human nature, you know?